Young Guns (3)

Parang tumigil ang mundo ko nang mabasa ko ang notification kung kanino galing. Literal na huminto ata ang puso ko. Exaggerated? OA? Two words at one liner nataranta nako kung sasagutin ko ba o hindi.

It has been months since the last time Manny and I communicated. i blocked him from my social media account. I just unblocked him recently. But I remember the last convo we had when he was in his Mindanao.

“i miss you.” It has been hours since it was sent. Awww. I wasn’t able to catch him. Offline na siya. But then I sent him
“i miss you too!”
“miss mo ko?” he replied. Uy nag online saya ko.
“siyempre naman” said I.
“tangina miss mo asawa nya to!” was the response.

I was flabbergasted! My world suddenly whirled and I felt like vomiting. All I could say was “i’m sorry. Hindi ko alam.”

Wala ng response at hindi na rin ako nagtanong. I felt the seething anger of that woman. And I can only understand her feeling. I have no plans of getting involved with a married man or someone who is in a relationship. Ayoko manakit ng kapwa ko babae sa ganyan paraan. Babae rin ako alam ko paano masaktan at paano nakakasuklam ang mga babae na knowingly pumapatol sa may-asawa o kalive-in. wtf! At ako pala ang babaeng yon. Tbh hindi ko naisip na mapupunta ako sa ganitong sitwasyon. Tang ina talaga. Ang tanga ko. Hindi ako nag isip ng kung anupaman when he was so busy when got back to his place. Sabi ko pa nga “sobrang busy ba sa family bonding?” ang sagot ni Manny “oo hehehe.” Akala ko naman sa tatay at nanay nya dahil ilang buwan siyang nasa Manila for training. At syempre holy week baka naman nag iikot sa simbahan o kaya may mga obligations etc.

So I was in state of shock for a few days. Pero kahit ganun bakit hindi ko maisumpa ang kups… I was kind of depressed, sad, broken, forlorn, devastated…

Isa lang sinabihan ko kasi dba we don’t announce our katangahan to the world. Kay Philip ko nasabi. Si Philip na panay ang flirt sakin sa phone at sa social media. Nangungulit ng meet up at sex… Sabi ko sa kanya “ang landi landi mo may asawa ka naman” which he said “uy single talaga ko punta ka pa rito sa bahay ko sa QC.”

Of course hindi ako nagpunta. Nagngangalngal ako sabay magpuputa, magpakangkang sa iba.

At sinabi ko na lang sitwasyon ko sa kanya at ang nangyari . Nainis bakit daw ako nagsorry eh wala naman ako kasalanan. Sana sinabihan ko raw yung babae na galingan nya para hindi naghahanap ng iba asawa nya. Sakin naman nauunawaan ko naman yung asawa bakit nagkakaganun. Basta napatawa ako ni Philip ng araw na iyon. Medyo magaan na pakiramdam ko ng konti. By the way, hindi pa kami nagmeet ni Philip in person. Kulitan lang sa phone at social media. At tiniis ko na rin na hindi mag message pa kay Manny kahit na gustong gusto ko siya kausapin. Hindi ko nga pa magawa iblock yung account nya that time. Bakit? Ayoko lang (tanga di ba?).

Then one day as I was doing some menial tasks I felt uneasy, yung parang may nangyayaring masama nung oras na yun. Lahat naman ng taong close sakin ay nasa malapit at ayos naman. I was really uneasy. and I thought of Manny…baka may nangyayaring masama sa kanya.

I checked my phone..walang notif…Hindi ako mapakali. The last time I felt that way was the day an ex of mine died. Sure ako whatever I was sensing was about Manny. Hindi ako nakatiis I checked out his FB. Tang ina!

Wala pong namatay pero nakapost ang real account ni Manny. Nakapost din account ng asawa nya. At nag warning pa na pasisikatin nya ang mga malalandi na pumatol sa asawa nya. Mukhang hindi lang ako ah. Ang malas ko naman talaga. Mapapahiya pa ako ng ganito. (and that was my real concern..hindi na yung nalaman ko na player talaga siya) Wala akong nude pix kay Manny at the most was a pix in a two piece white bikini taken when I was still hitting the gym. Hay kabwisit naman talaga. This is not how I wanted to be famous. Though I was using a dummy account, I still have close friends in that account. Hindi ko nga sinabi sa kanila ang sitwasyon tapos malalaman sa ganitong paraan. Tang ina naman talaga.

Teka, teka I was thinking way too much ahead of myself. Wala pang eskandalo na nagtuturo sakin.I mean a scandal that would lead to me. I could block his account and that of his wife..and end this fiasco.

And that’s what I did.

=to be continued=